I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. The past few days were tough, but i'm over the hump now. Although there may be more bumps in the road, it is great to know that i can put my feelings out there and have friends who have been through, are going through or are there to support me. It really means so much! I have some IRL friends who read along too, but i feel like you are all my friends. Really.
I also want you to know, that I have grieved and moved on from not being able to conceive. I am truly excited for those who are expecting. i think my hurt and anger and frustration comes from...when it is my turn? There are days when it feels like never. I remember going off birth control 3 years ago and imagining my life with a child. I imagine my husband as a wonderful daddy and i imagine all the memories we will make. None of that has faded, i promise. Some days, the visions are just more blurry then others.
I also really started to think about living in the now. If i open a storefront and we are matched, then i can deal with it. There are so many ways to handle the situation. I will keep you updated!
Once i talked to Christopher last night and he cheered me up, i had a clearer mind. Granted, a mani & pedi along with a glass of wine and another 1/2 pint of ice-cream helped too. =)
I wanted to share something i read from my favorite inspiration, Ralph Marston.
I hope you are having a fabulous day!