This was the email i received at 11:44 a.m on Friday, October 2, 2009:
Dear Rebecca & Chris,
CONGRATULATIONS!!! Your file became active with X Adoption Agency today, October 2, 2009.
It was one of the best emails i have ever received. As i literally typed back to the adoption coordinator in tears, as well as the Director, Social Worker, Caseworker and all the other wonderful people we have met along the way, i was shaking. The only way i can really describe it was that i "felt" pregnant. Not that i'll ever experience pregnancy per se, but this is the closest i'll come before having a baby in my arms. It feels like i am "fertile" now, that we could get matched at anytime. Now we really are going to have a baby. No more shots, no more ultra-sounds, no more blood work, no more BFN's, no more RE visits. Only ups and downs and happiness on this new ride. It feels like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. I know GOD has his plan, and you better believe it is a good one!
So i just about called everyone under the sun, sent texts and emails and then...... we celebrated! Our way.
We visited one of our favorite restaurants Bomber's Bar. Of course we told our waitress and she brought us a shot and some drink coins! We had some great food and great conversation. On our way home, Christopher called our local wine store that we go to all the time and had the guy we know there put a bottle of Champagne on ice for us. He stopped to pick up my favorite ice-cream and had an amazing, yet simple and sweet card for me. I was so stinking happy!
I have to say, that even a few days later, it still feels so good, not stressful and not anxious (yet). We are looking forward to this journey and are prepared for a wait regardless of the length.
Through my life, i have to say that i don't have any regrets at all. I will say though, i remember about 2.5 years ago when Christopher wanted to start having a family. We were in the process of buying a home and i was thinking..."no, not yet. We will be that couple who gets pregnant the first time. That won't be good as we are house hunting and moving." Well, if i had only known GOD's plan at that time. I have really learned to live life as it will be and to know and understand that things are meant to be and there is a great plan for us for our life. So my one and only regret is not living life and letting be what was going to be. If i had, we probably would have had this feeling months ago!
So... what i have done is come up with the Top 10 Reasons to Adopt after failed fertility treatments:
1. no morning sickness
2. no stretch marks
3. no weight gain
4. no eating for 2
5. the unknown can be an amazing thing!
6. i get to still drink my wine =) (shots at Bomber's Burrito Bar)
7. no more ultrasounds!!
8. no more blood draws ( i was beginning to look like a druggie and wore long sleeves on hot days)
9. I get to give a baby the best life ever!
10. We get to be parents in probably one of the most rewarding way that might not have a chance otherwise.